Spit Happens: One Year

Lots can happen in a year. My life got turned upside down, around and inside out in the course of a split second. The second I saw "pregnant" on digital little test. That was well over a year ago. You didn't feel real to me at all at first. I knew you were growing inside me, but the reality of you, the living breathing you didn't set in until well after you were born. I did not know what to think of you at first and I never in a million years would think I would grow so "fond" of you. And boy have I! I remember that first night together in the hospital, when Daddy was out for the count as soon as we made it back into our room, and the nurses kept bringing me to you to nurse every three hours. You were born at 10:28 PM, so that first night, it was just you and me and a snoring daddy. You were so small - under 7 pounds. And we just sat there in the night. You slept and nursed and I didn't know what to think. I just knew I had just become a mother. The first few weeks were rough emotionally for me, and then something happened - I fell totally, helplessly, completely head over heels in love with you.

My sweet baby girl. You have changed my life in ways you will not understand until you hold your own precious baby in your arms. You are a loving, kind, willful, funny, busy, social, happy little girl! You have a sparkle that draws people to you. I pray that the light in your eyes never dims with age and the problems that will come with coming into the teenage years and adulthood. I pray you are happy and healthy! I will ALWAYS be here for you. ALWAYS! You saved me and brought me closer to God. Loving you is a glimpse into the love that God has for us. You are a joy beyond words and I love you more than I can say. Love is not a good enough word. You complete me - my sweet little monkey! Thank you for you!

Happy Birthday!!! We've come a long way!